The Merry Go Round of Me {and why I’m stepping off}

My friends, I’m ending my weekly updates about my weight. They were short-lived and rightly so. My weight. I don’t want to write about it anymore.  I spent a long while thinking yesterday about this, and I realised that I am simply contributing to society’s constant obsession with weight and looks. By reducing the sum of all my parts to what I weigh and what I did or didn’t do in regards to that number is not cool. I am a multi faceted maniac, who has a lot more to offer than whether or not I fit into a pair of booty shorts.

And I’m exhausted. Just completely exhausted. Exhausted by the barrage of articles on post baby bodies. Exhausted by talking about it constantly. Exhausted by slim friends telling me they’re fat. Exhausted by women eating and then saying they’re bad. Exhausted by diets and fads and regimes. So I’m just going to eat what I want within reason and keep up my exercise. I’m so miserable being constantly on a new diet. Miserable. And stressed. So I may as well be happy and just eat. I like using the food diary app I have. I like my daily walks. And I love cooking and baking. So I’m not going to deprive myself of that anymore.

And you know what? It’s boring when I post about how miserable I am. I don’t want to bore you. I want to make you laugh. I want to write about things I love and funny stories about stupid things I do; not how bad I am because I ate a Freddo Frog. My blogging, like my life has evolved post Smush. I want to use my education background to share activities. I want to write about my secret passion for organising crap. And I want to share my life with you. The good and the bad. I love writing. I adore it, and I think I’m pretty OK at it. But I don’t want it or myself to be defined by any one thing, and it seems that it is constantly my weight that is that one thing.

I’ll never be skinny. It’s not my body shape anyway, nor the one I want. I like curves. I want to be healthy and happy. I want to stop this merry-go-round and step off. I do not want my daughter thinking her mother cares only for a person’s weight. I do not want her so focused on that too. I want her to focus on health and feeling good. Not deprivation, desperation and shame.

So that’s what I’m doing today. Stepping off.

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10 thoughts on “The Merry Go Round of Me {and why I’m stepping off}

  1. Mumabulous

    Thanks. This post is so refreshing. I don’t think there is anything wrong with wanting to be a healthy weight and liking your own appearance BUT there is FAR,FAR,FAR too much emphasis on body image in our society. It seems to outweigh (pardon unintentional pun) everything else and its time to restore some balance.

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    1. Listen Sookie Post author

      Thank you. I completely agree about the balance. It’s so frustrating and all consuming! xx

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  2. Lauren @ createbakemake

    Thank you – I really needed to read this. A friend and I were having a similar conversation this morning, both of us feeling down about our weight/shape post baby, when really we are healthy, our babies are happy and this should be enough. We need to stop comparing ourselves to everyone.
    Good on you – curves are the best!

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    1. Listen Sookie Post author

      My pleasure. It’s just so hard to not be down on yourself and compare though, isn’t it? And I feel that we’ve almost been conditioned to be like that. Onwards and upwards I say! x

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  3. sam @little pink lines

    Mez do you know what I love about this post? It’s about embracing your own HEALTHY body. It’s not about trying to achieve an unrealistic body that is completely unattainable for most women and is, in fact, very unhealthy to maintain for most women. But it’s also not a post that rejects the idea of aiming for a healthy body. We need to pass on this message to our daughters, so they embrace health and nurture and love their own bodies with confidence and grace.
    You hit the nail on the head girl! GO YOU!

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    1. Listen Sookie Post author

      Sammi, one of my biggest goals for this year is to stop the body hate in front of Addison. I refuse to allow her to develop the same hatred I have. I want her to be healthy in body and mind! xx

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  4. Helen @ Blue Eyed Beauty Blog

    Hi! Stopping by from a link on Facebook. I can understand where you’re coming from with the posts about weight & fitness. I’ve run a health & fitness blog for awhile now (though it doesn’t get updated very often!) and one thing I don’t really like talking about is fitness/working out. Since being pregnant I haven’t really worked out much, but I know the difference between being fat and being curvy and after I have this baby there are a few things I want to work on, but I know I won’t be obsessing about being skinny like I used to before pregnancy. Hopefully all that makes sense? lol. Anyway, thanks for sharing your post! I enjoyed reading it!

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    1. Listen Sookie Post author

      Hi Helen, thanks for stopping by. It does make sense. Babies change your body and you need to ensure you give yourself time. Can’t stand these celebs who make dropping that weight in a second seem achievable for the average Joe! I’m looking forward to reading your blog! x

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